Tomorrow at 1:30 Charlotte Yeong Eun Germann will begin a new life with us. She will become the 4th child in a busy, crazy, happy American family. She will instantly have new parents, siblings, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and friends who love her. We have waited so long and are so excited to begin this next chapter in our story. But as much as tomorrow is a beginning for Charlotte it is also an ending for Yeong Eun. Tomorrow she will say goodbye to the only family she has known. She will say goodbye to the mother, father and sisters who love her so. I imagine that Yeong Eun's foster family is terribly sad tonight thinking about tomorrow's parting. We are sad for them and know that tomorrow and the days ahead will be difficult for them as silence fills the space where Yeong Eun's giggles used to be. We are so grateful for the wonderful care Yeong Eun received from them. We wish we could spare them the pain ahead but without their pain we can't have the joy of having Yeong Eun with us.
Tonight is an anxious night. I worry so much about how Yeong Eun will handle this transition. She is not quite two and certainly can't understand what is about to happen. What will she think when we take her from the agency? Will she think it is temporary and that we will take her back in a little while? Will she wonder when her foster mother is going to come for her? Will she feel kidnapped by us? When we met her she was such a happy fun little girl. I worry that this will break her. That it will break her heart and her spirit and that what is left will not resemble the girl we met last week. Will we be able to rebuild her heart and her spirit? Will we be able to help her understand that we love her and will never leave her?
We meet at the agency at 11:30 tomorrow to meet with the director Dr. Kim, have lunch and then say our final goodbyes to the foster family and take custody of Yeong Eun. Tonight we will pray that she will be comforted by us and that her transition into our family goes smoothly.
All those know you and love you are praying for same!
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